wtf?!

it's an ayumi kind of night. no doubt. adam's on his way over and we're going to install the new speakers that sweetc and i bought him for his birthday. totally excited! i like doing butch-ish stuff. heh. after that it's golden curry night! my roommate (hopefully i'll get pictures tonight!) is making curry for a bunch of us and we're going to make a party out of it. i so feel like i'm in college or something. heh.

work is strange. they keep dangling a really stellar position in my face and i don't know what to do or say about it. so tomorrow hopefully i'll have an interview for it and i'll sell myself like no other. the money is a million times better which is something i need. i need baaaad.

here's a pic of me and sweetc (carollani). the resolution is jacked cause i made it smaller via html. click on it for a clear image. bitch.

so i've been pretty busy these days. or at least that's the excuse i'll go along with... heh. pretty much all moved into the new pad. it's awkward at times and uncomfortable at others. but for the most part it's going well. my roommate is stellar and our kitties are getting along. whew. there were some tense moments, between the kitties, but all seems to be well.

finding myself being more and more social every weekend. meeting people left and right. just getting my butt out there and doing stuff. it's kind of something i always wanted for myself but then again... it's taxing to the max. i'm perpetually tired and unable to commit fully to everyone as i don't know what i may have previously said i'd do. not a good situation... but not the worst. so we're good to go.

work is well. frustrating. but when is it not? the only thing i ever know is that i need more monies. you heard that, eh? heh.

holy shit. this accutane is the weirdest shit. my skin is so fucking dry that whenever i get a little scratch or cut it pretty much turns into an instant scab since there's no way in hell it'll heal on it's own unless i pure moisturizer on it and say three prayers. so here's hoping i meet someone some day who thinks scars are sexy. seriously. my hands and arms are getting jacked.

( picture time. )

there is so going to be an actual post tonight or tomorrow. including pictures. because this video just sets the tone for the evening. we began drinking and then video chatting with our canadian lesbian. while drinking heavily. so heavily my glass never gets far from my mouth. the rest of the night includes massive lesbian make outs and lo-g getting his legs humped by two freaky chinese chicks. hells yeah. hells yeah.




so hungry... and getting ready to sign my lease for a house over looking the ballard locks. iRock.

just got back from my weekend camping trip in Vancouver. down. right. awesome. heh. on so many levels. and the awesomeness was a total surprise to me!

but anyway, no phone service for me up there pretty much and the phone died shortly after crossing the border anyway. so once i get home and plug the bad boy in i find there to be twelve new voice messages. one of them is from my mother telling me that one of the serial killers from phoenix, that i guess were just caught, was the bartender at her wedding. she was all freaked out. i remember spending a good amount of time talking to the bartender because, hey - it was a wedding. where else would i be? so now i'll be sorting through my photos from the wedding to see if i have anything worth selling to the tabloids. ha.

oh snaps! i finally went back to the gym. after my eight year (or so it felt) disappearance from Gold's - i finally went back. and had a surprisingly good time. ha. take that fat cells!

though i must be losing muscle to the max cause i'm down to 149. whaaat? exactly.

god damn. seriously. sheesh...

don't tell no body. but i be waiting until midnight so i can go upstairs. smack davey on the head to wake him. and say happy birthday. mwahaha. he probably doesn't even think i'll remember. that jackass. heh. fuck. the more i think about it i sound like someone's mom. doing the whole midnight thing. hehe.

man... i'm kind of down in the dumps tonight and it's really bothering me. it's been a really busy week with hanging out with friends and starting the new job. really busy. and i liked it though i'm totally dragging for a lack of sleep. i've barely gotten more than four or five hours a night lately. but it's been a really great week. so tonight not having a damn thing to do is just making me feel awkward. plus my friends all seem to be doing stuff so it's not like i can call and go do something with.

and damn it - there's just so much stupid shit on my mind that shouldn't be. just bringing me down... ah well...

but i guess if i'm stuck at home with nothing to do i can be greatful that the Simple Life is on. nicole ritchie can always cheer me up.

this weekend is pride which i'm not too excited about in the least. the more i think about it there really isn't anything wrong with pride it just doesn't appeal to me and all i imagine is the leather daddies and the twinks running around trying to find sex to express their "pride".

oh. and the fact that i'm insanely insecure when it comes to gay guys.

fuck...

oh. i have the homeless-public-gay-sex pic and video. gotta post that stuff. it's hilarious!

today was supposed to be awesome. today i was going to take more pictures of sea critters. and i was going to go to an awesome house warming. plus i was going to play softball. but after yesterday's fall into a crap load of barnacle covered rocks... yeah. i sat everything out. i feel like a big loser.

the cuts and scratches aren't that bad, really. nothing too deep. but when i fell on the rock it was a good two hours before i got back to my car to clean up - i figured that it wasn't bad enough to quit my hike for the day just yet despite the blood dripping from my fingers. i'm thinking it was a stupid idea right now because no matter how much hydrogen peroxide i pour on the cuts there is a constant red blotch around them. plus the cuts are all yellow and gross. looks like they're trying to scab over but aren't having much luck.

ugh.

ah well...

sometimes when i write an e-mail i look back at the text that i have written at that point and think to myself "man, logan. you're a fucking genius". i'm not a genius however, but i do come up with some fun e-mails that i can take pride in. ten points for me.

wrote in a card that says "merci" for my mom and step dad since they've helped me a bit lately with some stuff. so i wrote in broke french (apparently i write in "broke" english, too). and changed their last name to one more fitting - ketchup. oh man. i'm proud of that one, too.

lady sovereign was last night. UK all the way, lets give them a beat. hells to the yes. she was amazing and totally had my hard pounding with excitement. of course the security there was dead set on stealing any camera they could find so the pictures i took aren't the best. next time.... next time. but it was rad as hell because seattle was the first stop of the US tour. sweet.

so i discovered the power that is my camera and my photoshop skillz. ha. now i need to discover how to use flickr to the max. exciting.

what has my life consisted of lately?

• rat city roller derby


• diamond club mariner's game


• accutane, accutane!


• week w/ an annoying house guest


• moved a friend in under two hours


• watched two homeless guys have butt sex about two blocks away from RPlace

just got back from my short trip to the gym. it may have been short by i finally got the umph to go down to the arm machines. mwaha. i'm going to have biceps that fill out a shirt sleeve one of these days! other than that i just ran for about fifteen minutes. lame. i know. i really gotta figure out how to work on my belly. i have a nice set up down there but it's all covered by a sheet of flubber. not much but enough to make me barf when looking in a mirror. haha. oooooh boy! either way i'm excited that i finally got over my fear of the machines and looking like a fool.

sooo tired right now though. this accutane has made my lips literally raw and non-stop dry as hell. i'm taking it as a good sign but it's still annoying. i've taken great joy in blaming everything on the accutane. headache? it's the accutane. joints hurt? gotta be the accutane. fuzzy vision? stupid accutane. ha. granted the pills really do cause those side affects but i wouldn't chalk up one measly headache on the drug. it's still fun though.

working is making my brain go numb. not sure how much more i can take of it.

wheee! i went and got my accutane filled last night. do you know what this means? aside from the fact i'm in a huge ass data base and had to jump through hoops? it means i'll have some damn clear skin in a couple months! this means i have to plan something rather fantastic so when my skin is cleared up and my love handles are gone (or at least smaller) i'll be able to go out with an air of confidence and have fun! haha. it sounds lame - but seriously, i'm looking forward to it.

i guess that's about it... oooh! carollani and i are going to try to go to San Diego in july or august. it's depending on how much monies i have on hand come time but i think i can do it. don't know anyone in SD (or anyone that i can think of right now) but it'll be fun to hang out in the sun and see a real beach again! eeee! i'm actually really excited!

time to finish up the morning work out. did the cardio at the gym and now i'm gonna do my at home deal. mwahaha.

so i got myself a copy of Acid Pro (the music production deal - loops and what not) and i have to say that i'm totally effing lost. i figured that once i got it that all of the stuff in my head would just flow out like water. instead i'm just sitting here piecing stuff together and only really feeling like i'm just accomplishing the basic of getting to know the program. there's nothing wrong with it, in fact it's good that i really get the program down instead of getting upset and just giving up. but holy cow - i really disappointed myself. however i did squirt out a really fun minute worth of dope beats (to step to). though nothing special. it's mostly just a fourth grader showing his parents that he learned to spell his name in cursive even though to the average person it's a repulsive display of mere squiggles. regardless i thought it was fun.

went to the red skin's reservation today with the animals - davey and teya. it's fun watching teya just run on the beach and this time i got some really good pictures of her and the "beach". also i got a nifty little video of a medium sized dead crab with his claw to the sky and seaweed flowing from his other claw in the wind. no diggity - no doubt. it was a good little trip up there, though pretty short. ah well. got to listen to some fun music and teya got to run on the beach. so it was good.

last night i went out to see Carlos Mencia and Mos Def w/ carollani. six hour show with a couple awesome groups likes Blue Scholars and holla' - Mix Master Mike fucking blew the joint up with his mixes of nirvana and missy. and i got in a pushing match with a mexican. that's what happens when you give logan some once-banned weight loss pills... holy fuckle.

sometimes when i go back through the good old LJ and reread some of the crap that i've written - well, i crack myself up. hell yes i do.

janet has a new song out. it's her "thank you" to her fans. it's the remake of weekend from debbie deb. i see some stellar remixes and an amazing dance sequence to follow. her new album is due out in just a little over a month - june 19th. and then her tour will ensue. and you bet your ass i'll hit it up.

life has been pretty fast paced lately. well. at least for me it has been. socially i have found myself climbing a ladder of sorts and gaining new friends on my way up. of course it's not meant to last for me and i'm already feeling like breaking away from all this more-than-usual active lifestyle i'm falling into. but that's mostly cause i find myself spending more money when out with friends. monies i do not have. monies i'll be paying back for years to come.

one of the greatest joys that i have found about living in seattle though has been the abundance of social activities. regardless of how little i desire to be go-go-go i just can't pass certain things up. for example - bugs and beer. some community center-esque place hosted a showing of some endomologist's bug collection along with art related to said collection. who. who. who can pass that up? not i. it was pretty damn spiffy and i got some really fun pictures out of it (see below). but yeah - there is always something to do here and it's always something interesting. i'm loving it.

watching the boondocks has changed my life. not really. but now i want to be black more than ever. i say that in jest. it's a great show and despite all of the offensive language and finger pointing at the very race that gave themselves their own name, it sends out some intense messages at times. it's a good show. really good.

my mother and step father bought me a new camera. it's better than yours. and i'm not shitting you. it is.

ben's out of the big house and that means there's someone in the world who get me - to the max. again. i'm not shitting you. so it's awesome to talk to him about everything, everything, and just feel like i'm talking to myself. in a good way. i get excited - he gets excited. i get upset - he gets upset. it's nice. i can just talk and not worry. like janet says "you don't know what you've got 'til it's gone". janet really is the glue that binds some of my friendships. i'm pretty damn sure i can come up with some lyrics/songs to sum up a lot of my relationships with exes and friends alike.

i guess things have been going okay for me all-in-all. there's still crap to deal with every now and then. or. every day it seems. but in retrospect it's nothing to cry over and it's definatly nothing i need to worry over in the long run. work's a constant drag and i just don't see much of a bright light these days. i'm working on that though. ever so slowly. i guess it's just not a huge priority. however my skin is one. i think accutane is in the cards for me. we'll see... i need to hear a couple more success stories first (so far 1-3 in favor of disaster stories).

never have i been so social as i have been this past month. thankfully i'm relishing in it. though it has worn me down.

sitting at home right now. took a sick day because last night was drinks and bowling. and then more drinks. poor davey had to wake up to what i'm sure looked like a toxic waste dump which was me. so now the alcohol consumption is going to be much, much less. i might be twenty two but i don't need to drink like one.

it's so nice and sunny out today again. that should be motivation enough for me to get out there in some shorts and sunglasses and walk around downtown. so off to starbux i'll go get a green tea frap and then walk and walk. and then maybe call a cab to get back up the hill. no. not really.

i feel guilty taking a fake sick day from work. more so i feel bad when it was my fault i got trashed last night. actually, i just feel the worst because i don't have any sick days yet. thanks stupid mortgage company. thanks. i guess taking the day off is my fu to the company. blah.

whew, yesterday was a whirlwind day. started off with driving up to shoreline to meet with Mary and Brian where we dilly dally for a few and take her mom's dog home to her mom. then we load up the car and whoosh! we start up to the Tulip Festival (aka - drunkard's ball). we get up to La Conner and bask in the glow from about three different wineries in the area. tasted some of this... some of that... little more of this topped with that. it was really fun. and i brought back and amazing pineapple wine along with a blackberry wine. they're pretty much dessert wines but they are fantastic.

when we got to the tulip fields it was turned out to be an amazing site. acres upon acres of tulips. we hit the smaller of the three fields just because it was the cheapest. but it was by no means small. so we took some fun pictures, evident below, and tromped through the tulips to watch all of the people take their own pictures - tourist city. after we had our fill of the fields we went to a brewery in La Conner and tried some "tulip beer"... i mean, it's a tulip festival - you gotta try the tulip beer. just tasted like ESB. not up my alley.

oh! i spotted a bald eagle. that was pretty nifty. now i'm hungry. hungry like the wolf.

as soon as i rolled back into shoreline i was rushed right back up to everett for a house warming. i've never seen so much booze surrounded by so few people. ha. but it was a good time. and since i wore my cowboy belt last night i felt it was only right to line dance to their ghetto R&B they were playing.

and the night went on from there...